A good eight years were wasted on someone I dated briefly and became obsessed with once he ended it. I think there is still a lot more stigma than we admit, and every joke someone cracks about being “so OCD” makes it harder to explain that while you all think you’re totally cool with me being obsessive-compulsive, it’s a lot more than lining up pencils and touching the light switch.It was the most tangible manifestation of my illness I’ve experienced, and it makes me sick to think about. Men have broken up with me after getting only a glimpse of my worst looming on the horizon, and others have stayed with me through abhorrent behavior because they were afraid of what I might do if they left.
Therapists are trained not to tell you exactly what to do, no matter how much I ask.
I'm sure that self-help books are very helpful for some people, but I never make it much past the table of contents.
On the other hand, the tangle of depression, anxiety, OCD, and borderline personality disorder in my head came fairly close to talking me into a swan dive off of a fifth-floor Paris balcony last week.
(If you’ve never suffered from depression, it might sound nonsensical that I would do this at my most self-confident.
I can't imagine anyone asking her out, let alone thinking she’d be a good mother to their children.
Last year I went on a few dates with someone I met online, though I am leery of online dating.She is hateful and self-pitying, withdrawn, listless, angry.She will try her best to hurt you, and lash out until she does.She regularly engages in psychotherapy and takes daily prescribed medication.She is successful socially, educationally and occupationally, but she is constantly battling her illness, trying to prevent it from flaring up.Possibly the worst effect my illness has on relationships is my inability to let go of something that is clearly not working. Many people will not be interested in dealing with my illogical side, and it’s not their fault or mine. In , Martin Amis wrote: “Have you ever stayed in a place where you wanted someone who didn't want you?